hmm. not much choice now for me carrying my lil darling.

darling has finished his bmt. 

lols. time files. loves him so much.

i am going to throw donate all the winnie the poohs in my house to the charity.

it's collecting dust.

and i find it irritating.

and it's ugly.

but i still love winnie the pooh.

gonna see it in disneyland.

woo... winnie the pooh.

no matter wad darling said to me.

i know it was in an moment of anger.

i did it to him too.

i still love him the same.

and i know he do too.

and to reader..

i think you have poor knowledge or do you have bad experiences or something?

you know it's NOT fun at all to start a family at young age

it's takes lots of courage to start one.

and it's not easy.

yes i chose this path becos i love him. 

and we did not have a shot gun just like others.

we wanted this baby very badly.

and i know my hubby loves us very much.

as he has sacrifice alot.

i was more childish in the past.

that i bet you dont know.

before i met my hubby.

i went out with bungs or butches.

i thought guys are just bunch of bastards.

there is one butch whom i went out with for a period of time.

but in the end i find that such relationship are unrealistic and and does not serve the purpose

of me being in this world.

she does not treat me that well too.

and she cannot give me wad i want.

that's the most important thing.

she cannot give me a complete family.

to have a family i need alot of maturity too.

you think it's easy to carry a baby for 9 months?

and to get married and sacrifice all the fun i could have.

i was wild in the past.

but not now.

i have a goal.

and my goal is to have a happy family with my hubby.

so if you have any comments just feel free to tag my blog.